Living in Denial A personal blog of a girl named Survon.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Crazy thoughts

Life is like a roller coaster - up and down, full with challenges. You'll refer it as excitement if you've learnt how to appreciate it. For a darn loser, you'll be scared to death and try to jump down from the seat before it reaches the fluctuating point. By doing so, can we really cease problems from arising? When we avoid ourselves from learning how to stand up after falling down, do we consider this as a kind of protections or we are just living in denial?

Everything that has happened, good or bad, will directly affect ONE thing, the feeling. When feeling is affected, the next thing to drag into the circle would be the relationships with your family members, friends, colleagues and your life partner. When you fall in love with your partner, you chose to love your partner for your whole life, but hey, can you assure your partner is thinking the same way, though both of you seems to be so lovely at this particular time? Everything seems to be impermanent when you cannot really predict what will happen next because most of the things are just not within your control. Is this what we say helpless?

Buddhist teaches the middle path. As long as we do not feel too happy over things, we will not have to suffer the feeling of being extreme sad. In other words, we need to learn how to control our feeling and not to let the feeling control our mind. Most of the time, we chose to let feeling swipe our sense away. We thought we couldn't control our own feeling, but did we ever try hard? When we really know how to control our feeling, will we become feeling-less? By then, have we achieved enlightenment, or it's just an alternate way of describing a cold-blooded creature?

You might be thinking what happened to Survon, writing all these nonsense. hmm..I have no idea. Probably too many holidays will drive oneself insane...

posted by Survon @ 7:06 PM,